I'm writing this post in crisis, I've had a little too much to drink this evening and it feels like i'm right on the brink of the edge . . . Normally when I feel like this I listen to music, but at the moment I am getting messages from the music - Its like there is a code I have to break and it's taking most of my willpower to stop from trying to find it out by writing down the words that "highlight" themselves to me.
I'm also desperate to go searching for Patch, he feels in real trouble and I just don;t know what to do - It's so distressing . . .
I'll probably call my crisis line soon so there may not be another post for a while depending on how tonight goes - Please stay tuned though. . .